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You don't know that feel

Yesterday.
I realized I don?
wan? die.
NNW.. We
I Ital? We I wash‘?
supposed IN MAM Tm”
o D o Id been cl
luv
when mg When We dad when mg mom
fold me told me
fold me
I MMS'
r dla/ owe gain
eill mom because
ml iill- she' ll gel
is sou
I believed her. I believed him. I believed her.
I believed that being born had
imprisoned them into ca life that
was poisoning them.
If I a
mistake Hoof
Haen I need i"
to compensate for
mg existence.
Hal' s uoey I work so hard,
As long as
here, I need
to make maself
useful.
had ruined mg parents lives to justify being alive.
moves in our rec -
room wax; we onle mg Itll " 'latt
Iameli could meg lonelier Er " I I
J 5% P T mulching Shelley
u k g C” cc, , bill norris
R and Robin Williams
e on rended VHS
tapes.
Theg felt like extended I
like distant Q
and uncles.
I' m wag no squeemish
injury or pain)
Cant even
watch eoin
mus! i.: uneed Io slop "weiird
Or mg hear? V
were spontaneously
inn me.
That
sounded
to me.
I love mg job, I love mg community and I love mg husband.
Abut if there were blink me our
CK button I could push of existence, no
would juse pd, hesitation, I would
push it
tij)
ait,
Some moray's ago A couple Last moneh
I fold mg husband I I back on
months ago I gm
donyt want‘ be Q therapist, ,
alive sing more.
l“ zondag,
for the first time in 31 gears,
I didm usinf to push that button.
Tuesday.
I learned
Robin Williams killed himself.
I lanai.) Mal his
w’ friends and {
u public spectacle of or am ones in
mourning -, real pain.
I know I dab’?
know I' llm as
a real person.
an it hurts.
If hurts that
gou' re toof here
mmg more.
It hurts War gm
were as part of mg Me
and goo purposely
ended gems.
Todai I realized that if the suicide of a stranger I never met
could feel like personal. painful loss, how much worse would if
hurl mg own friends and iameli even more lose me?
luv gums Bl
to have bad mam Io push
dogs than bullion.
tootoo
live.
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