i really don't think i need to remove things. just change them. but i have no clue how to go from living with my parents and delivering pizzas to living on my own with some sort of career/job that doesn't suck cock.
try to expand your job experience and work up to management or another thing that pays well, don't forget to learn from others mistakes as well, get a room mate to help with bills in a cheap studio apartment and you're well off to a good start.
find hobbies.
im also a very quiet guy but i dont mind, dont care really what others think about it.
i bought myself a keyboard and learned to play many many songs and i cant even read notes, i also like drawing alot. i enjoy long walks in rough terrain (mountain forests) and exploring, and star gazing. these things make me happy but also give me inspiration to draw or play piano.
(i was in severe depression years ago and had suicidal thoughts, but now when i look back, that's just not worth it.
> be me
> love music
> love video games
> try to share my passion with the community on fj
> make video game music comps to share music with people, and gain more music in return
> see that people actually thumb me down
> wonder how someone can not like the sharing of good music
> wonder why someone would try to keep my post at the bottom of fj, and prevent me from sharing music, and giving everyone a bit of goodness, including myself.
> look at profile
> "probably going to kill myself soon"
> thanks for the perspective
A friend of mine was suicidal last year. I told him to wait it out and talk to me whenever he needs to. Today he felt like an idiot for feeling like that. So give yourself a few weeks. Have some fun and set a suicide date for the 10/10. I doubt you'll feel the same as you do now in a month.
dont let yourself become a victim of whatever it is thats getting you down, get the **** up, go out there and kick life in the ******* teeth as hard as you can, its your life dont let anything stand in your way.
Do what I do, stay up late into the night, desperately clawing at the walls to try and regain some founding in reality to keep you sane. I have issues.
Substance, masterbation, and make something of yourself. Learn something that defines you. Or if you don't, you might as well just get over it. Don't be a pussy though, go out and do something worthwhile with your life. You won't regret it, just keep going and you'll see what I mean
Look here bro, I'm 23, I live with my parents, I have nothing going for me right now. I'm still here and I keep going. I mean I feel like a waste of space and a drain on society.
There's a ton of **** that's gone on, I've been in the hospital, I've almost died a couple times some on purpose.
All I can really say for me is what keeps me here is my family.
I'd suggest seeking mental help with your local hospital or mental health establishment. I was on anti depressants for awhile and that helped me wonders, eventually took myself off them and opted for weed instead so that and family is what works for me. Get a hobby if you don't know what to do with yourself, I find computers/video games are my thing.