Take a break from the anger

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#50 - epicbanjoman ONLINE (08/01/2015) [-]

Although I didn't do much this summer, I feel good. I feel as if I've matured so much. I've been working out and though I may not have the physique of a bodybuilder, I'm fit and that's good enough for me. I've just gotten out of a depression i've been suffering since the beginning of last summer. I'm ready to finish my senior year and graduate. I'm ready to do something with my life. I'm an uncle now and I'm happy for my sister and brother-in-law. After a year and a half of writing, I've finally figured out how to present the story I've spent sleepless nights attempting to articulate. All of this, its like a heavy weight being lifted off my heart. I've lost many friends in the past few years, I've ended relationships with people I immaturely cared so much for, but none of that bothers me anymore. For as long as I can continue to write and create, for as long as I am able to accomplish something with myself, I feel at ease and for once, I am content with life.
thank you for reading

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#111 to #50 - rokkai (08/01/2015) [-]

seeing people becoming happier as the time goes is one of my favorite things to read. it makes me feel relaxed. great job there.

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#51 to #50 - zeldamasterace ONLINE (08/01/2015) [-]

congrats man!

can't say i can relate to everything in your post. but some of it i can understand. right now i'm in a slump. and its nice to hear others are succeeding in places that sound similar to where i've been.

KILL EM! KEEP GETTING JACKED! WAY TO GO BRO!

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#36 - leice (08/01/2015) [-]

Getting all teary thinking of how I've gotten to where I am.

I've been through a helluva lot of **** , medically and mentally. But I made it.

That makes me really happy.

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#38 to #36 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

That's the spirit, bruddah!
You are strong, you are the protagonist of your story.
The plot cannot advance without you my friend.

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#42 - stilch ONLINE (08/01/2015) [-]

I am finally losing weight, making friends. I am starting to get more determined with my goals.

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#43 to #42 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Keep on going, my friend.
As the ancient hawaiians used to say;
"Those whose ambitions become as inevitable as death itself, spark fear into their enemies, and trust from their peers"

These are the roots of charisma.

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#44 - XDRyuDX (08/01/2015) [-]

Im thinking of how much i love my family cuz how strong our bonds are. And i think im finally gona ask out the girl ive been interested in for a while now. Things may be alil messed up right now but im sure ill get over it soon

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#99 to #44 - Weirdozzy (08/01/2015) [-]

**** yeah man, keep at it, and you'll reach the top of your own mountain. Prayers for the best for you. Gif sort of related (without the sarcasm)

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#46 to #44 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

That's how it is, brudda.
Stick to the plan. You've got this.

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#22 - mckinkymcormic (08/01/2015) [-]

i've achieved a lot just this summer.
i'm going to come out of my internship with a great portfolio project to show future employers and i'm trying to get another gig during the school year so i can have something else to share.
life is great right now.

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#23 to #22 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

I am so happy for you my friend.
What kind of career are you going for? I happen to be starting a multinational graphics design company with a friend of mine in sweden.

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#32 to #23 - mikasuh (08/01/2015) [-]

Holy **** , it's like everyone is doing graphic design. I'm going to be studying it too when I graduate 9th grade.

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#33 to #32 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Trust me you'll love it.
You will want to practice before you enter the class so that you can start off as the ace of the class. Trust me, it will earn you a lot of respect. You can get the adobe creative cloud for like 40 bucks a month, and you get to use all of their pro tools.

Thats what Im doing for my classes right now.
When you master a little bit of 3D and 2D, you can mix them together and do this.

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#34 to #33 - mikasuh (08/01/2015) [-]

That's cool as **** man. I'm psyched to start.

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#35 to #34 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

To start you off, there are open source programs(free without viruses).

Blender(3D modelling/animation)
Pencil(the program, not the real thing[you might want to use a tablet])

But to get familiar with 2D animation, you might want to experiment with Pivot 2.0(also free), and you can use your mouse to pose a stickman.

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#37 to #35 - mikasuh (08/01/2015) [-]

I've used pivot multiple times before when I was smaller. I mostly made zombie stuff. I might get it for some 2d animation.

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#39 to #37 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Pivot will get you far, since it helps you spend more time learning how animation works, rather than wasting your time drawing

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#24 to #23 - mckinkymcormic (08/01/2015) [-]

i'm jealous.
i'm working at a grpahic design company, but my real passion is vidya tbh.
it's a hard career to get into, and i definately dont have the skills to go get a degree in CS, but i will take what i got.
i've allready started on my connections, right now i'm in contact with a multi-millionare who is running for congress who hooked me up with the people i'm working at, and my project's for another rich guy who knows the people at Epic Games. it's some cool **** .

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#27 to #24 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Huh, maybe I could connect with you too.
I happen to be a 3D and 2D animator.
My strengths are in full body animations, but facial animations happen to be one of my weaknesses that I am working on.

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#28 to #27 - mckinkymcormic (08/01/2015) [-]

you do animations DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
we need to hook up. i'm realy good at 2d games. we should make something.

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#30 to #28 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Hope you like robots

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#31 to #30 - mckinkymcormic (08/01/2015) [-]

did you make this?!?!?!?!?!

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#66 to #31 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Yep, i did.

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#67 to #66 - mckinkymcormic (08/01/2015) [-]

that is freaking amazing!

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#68 to #67 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Thank you my friend!

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#29 to #28 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

I'll PM you my contact info

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#110 - drastronomy (08/01/2015) [-]

I saw a mildly attractive girl that one day i left my moms basement

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#88 - abiderp (08/01/2015) [-]

My favorite thing in the world is ordering something in the mail. I love when it finally comes in the mail, it feels like I'm a little kid on Christmas morning.

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#90 to #88 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Isn't it such a great feeling?
Especially after the shipping company delays it a dozen times, and you're feeling all down and depressed, then one day it arrives earlier than expected?

What a great feeling

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#91 to #90 - abiderp (08/01/2015) [-]

I know. It may not be as meaningful as some of the other stuff down in the comments, but it always makes my day.

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#25 - Tsquared ONLINE (08/01/2015) [-]

probably the happiest thing i can think of is the times when I've managed to make my whole friend group laugh uncontrollably,
I'm a bit awkward at times and i went through a couple years without a friend group so those moments are my favorite, when i just can feel successful and accepted

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#112 - nooter (08/01/2015) [-]

Been struggling with bipolar disorder and social anxiety for the past 3 years, on and off meds, in and out of the psych ward, and skipping my appointments thinking that I could deal with it on my own. As of recently however, I've been reaching out to friends and family for support when I need it. I also decided to get physically healthy by losing weight (50 lbs), cleaning up my diet, drinking more water, and exercising 6 days out of the week. The difference in my mood is night and day. I'm more confident, got a job in my desired field, and I got a dog. My future isn't looking as bleak these days.

TL;DR: OP was hopeless, now isn't

Pic related, feeling better than kanye sandwiched between another kanye and a cantankerous whore

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#163 to #112 - cognosceteipsum (12/13/2015) [-]

wtf? I plan on losing about 50 lbs, I have bipolar disorder and I exercise 6 days a week... Spooky

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#131 - darkvengence (08/01/2015) [-]

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#98 - Weirdozzy (08/01/2015) [-]

Man...since I left high school I stopped even spending time outside...I don't remember when the last time I just went out for a walk in the woods was... **** man, I used to be such a positive kid back then too, then life kicked me full force in the dick, and instead of getting up and shaking it off I just let it push me into cynicism. **** it, I'm gonna go outside and look and some trees n' ****

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#101 to #98 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

You should get into an outdoor hobby like drone flying. You can get a cheap one online for 50 dollars, and get spare rechargeable batteries for like 10 dollars each.

It would be like playing a video game, but real life.
That is what I do with my drones. I fly around, do stunts, and take pictures of the beautiful world from 300 feet in the air.

Fun fact; the higher you fly, the longer you can see the sunset since you can look over the horizon.

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#102 to #101 - Weirdozzy (08/01/2015) [-]

That actually sounds really fun. I want to do it, when I get the money for it, I will
thanks man

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#103 to #102 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

I do this almost every day.
I promise you won't regret it.

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#104 to #101 - Sunset ONLINE (08/01/2015) [-]

o

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#80 - weeniss (08/01/2015) [-]

My mom helps me keep going when I'm on the other side of the country

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#82 - sullseeker ONLINE (08/01/2015) [-]

Well, I've had a decent enough time getting to college. I'm doing great with the work, and I'm going into a brand new field, so that's a plus.
But there's waaay more downsides. Starting off, everyone in that college is stupid enough to the point where a supposed "prank" got me set on fire. I don't mind pranks, but it gets to be bothersome when it actually harms.

I've been trying to get with this 8.5/10 gal, but I knew her since I was like 6-7, so friendzone got in the way. Tried getting with other girls, keep getting so unlucky. Ontop of that, I just recently graduated High School, causing all my friends to flock away, and now literally my only real life "friends" are someone in that class I rarely talked to and a 30-40 year old guy in the college who just quit the college since he got a well-paying job. .. and to top it all off, after privately talking to different people that have studied therapy, etc., I think I have a serious depression I didn't really know about.

I just wish I could go to a much better place. Not many areas are teaching the field I'm going into, and I wish I was more successfully social as a person. I'd just love to be the social hero of the situation. I want to do some good, rather than be the guy that just sits in the back and is forced to watch. When I'm feeling really down, I try to imagine myself, years from now, an expert in my new field, on my way to making a huge savings and helping people that are in need. All I want to do is mean something.

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#83 to #82 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Oie, let me ask.
What kind of field do you plan to get into? There are so many great things you can do and become good at. What was your choice?

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#84 to #83 - sullseeker ONLINE (08/01/2015) [-]

Well, I originally planned on becoming a video game developer when I was younger(Childhood dreams), found it was all just competition, stopped that. I then planned on Animation and Graphic Design(Self-taught, for the most part), then an instructor that was teaching me Residential Wiring in High School told me that was a bad choice.
Now, I'm going into a whole field relating to 3D Printers known as Metal Infusion, which is basically Machine Tools, but I form the metal components out of a metal powder using those printers. Cool stuff, really, but it's a new field, and difficult to get into.

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#85 to #84 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

If you can code, I can model and animate your game for you.
Let's keep in touch.

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#86 to #85 - sullseeker ONLINE (08/01/2015) [-]

Not really able to code yet, sadly. I will be learning it in the future, however. I use SFM for my animations, sometimes still use it. Just not as common, anymore, now that I'm working in college, etc. I didn't actually have a game in plan, I'm moreso working with real life metal, learning to model it. I'd be down to keep in touch

Picture relevant, thumbnail I made for a YouTube Video.

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#89 to #86 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

You've got talent.
Don't take the word from your highschool teacher.
Do your metal modelling career, and explode indie game development on the side.
Your at-home project could become your second job after work, and eventually you can bring along other talented friends for the task.
It won't be long before you make something so great that you won't need to work again for another 5 years.

As the ancient hawaiians used to say;
"Even the weakest streams can erode entire canyons in their wake. Just give them time."

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#93 to #89 - sullseeker ONLINE (08/01/2015) [-]

Thanks I mean, I usually wouldn't care for what they say, but it is quite true, after I spoke to video game devs and graphic designers, telling me that if I don't like competition or constant work, I should probably find a new job.

I didn't want to leave my experience, so now I'm putting it into this rad career. I'm melting metal into place from powder to component using modelling, and I'm quite excited for it. That's why I continue to once every so often visit Source, and I do know a few animators that I'd kill to work with(Including a guy that even worked on the famous Guardian Pyro video), but he's going into the military.

Thanks, you have helped me think alot about my career. Now I just gotta get past the fact that I'm pretty much a social outcast in the real world ^_^ Cheers, man!

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#78 - pickaxe (08/01/2015) [-]

song's not available in germany,music is forbidden here. I'm exaggerating,but a lot of stuff gets blocked over here

6-week Internship was very helpful,but kind of a disappointment.
not in the job itself,more in myself.If I didn't **** up the script,I'd have made the animation part in a week or so.....
But I got the chance to rewrite the script properly at the end,and am planning to finish the project myself.

It was disappointing to fail,but I very much needed a lesson on planning,and, in my opinion, few things work as well as trial by fire.

another year before my shooling is finished, and I'm motivated to get my skills up there.

also,my education-assistance-fund-thing has to be renewed,and I'm stuck with gathering scrap money until the paperwork goes through.

there's some more,but it doesn't matter.

tl;dr: Life's been sort of a dump lately,but I'm down to make it better.

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#79 to #78 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Keep it up, my friend.
Life is a world of infinite possibilities, within finite amount of time.

That internship is going to pay for itself in the long run.
Employers value experience over education any time(unless it's a big soulless company, they end up full of incompetent workers with degrees and no experience that way)

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#49 - Anetheril (08/01/2015) [-]

**Anetheril used "*roll picture*"**
**Anetheril rolled image** Eight months ago I finally got a job and I've recently been promoted to a management position. I'm also dating for the first time in my life and overall have been happier than I have in years.

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#52 to #49 - classydancingrobot (08/01/2015) [-]

How old are you ?

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#61 to #52 - Anetheril (08/01/2015) [-]

22

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#64 to #61 - classydancingrobot (08/01/2015) [-]

Nice dude, too many people are crying at young age because they cant find ,,true" love .... **** it, you are 22 and are in a relationship + a good position at work

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#48 - applescryatnight (08/01/2015) [-]

why am i feeling from this song?
i barely know who this guy is and this is the first time ive ever heard him.
something about it....

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#26 - Kingwasabi (08/01/2015) [-]

makes me think of my family, a kinder bunch if red-necks you will never find

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#17 - alcoholandthc (08/01/2015) [-]

I think my best memories are riding bikes with my friends whether it be motocross or just riding street bikes, those are the times. pic related, my Harley.

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#18 to #17 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

Wow my friend, it is beautiful!
Those are good memories, indeed.

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#20 to #18 - alcoholandthc (08/01/2015) [-]

Thanks, its a tribute bike my Dad built for my grandfather after he passed, i bought it from him about 5 years ago.

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#21 to #20 - totallytito [OP](08/01/2015) [-]

May his legacy life through you, my friend.

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#16 - norwegiansnowman (08/01/2015) [-]

thx man, been stressing lately, so I needed that boost.

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#151 - sphincterface (08/02/2015) [-]

You know, I'm going through a lot. But....things will get better. I want them to get better and I know they will. I have to get myself through all this and I know I will. In a years time, I will be finishing my last year at CC and transferring to a university close to my home, and then I am starting my career at home. It's only a year, right? I can wait a year, and you know when you're in college and you work all day, a year is going to pass by pretty quick. It's not really a year honestly, like 10 months but it's a school year nonetheless. It will go by quick, I will come home soon to the people I love and I will be close to my brother and my father and all my friends back home. Things will get better, things will be okay in the end. Things are going to look up. I just need to be positive. I need to be happy. I need to smile and look forward to a happier future that is coming soon, I just gotta work towards it.