No one else that I want to turn to

darthlegolas

The name's Austin. I'm seventeen goin on eighteen and i've been a member of funnyjunk i believe for nearly 2 years now. Basically I want to talk to someone and you guys tend to be the best candidate since none of you know who I am.
Anyways, it's about a girl. We'll call her Penelope. We got together roughly eight months ago. She has been through a lot. Abuse, rape, rejection, all that fun stuff. I fall in love. felt real. I wanted to see her everyday but 2-3 times a week is usually all we could do.
From her own mouth, I was told that I helped her a lot with her depression that came with the stuff i mentioned earlier. From what I understand she was on the verge of suicide before I came into the picture. Felt good to help someone like that, especially someone like her.
After seven months of love and drama she sits me down and breaks up with me. "I just don't love you anymore" I never let on to anyone how much it hurt. acted cool, didn't break down till i was alone in my room.
she seemingly instantly gets together with another guy. His name is Auston. Not even joking. Yesterday (we see each other every sunday at church) we strike up a conversation trying to remain friends. At this point, i had felt like I had gotten almost completely over her. Than she said something. "You were the only boyfriend that really made me happy. That's why my mom..." I stopped her there. Didn't get emotional outwardly, but inwardly was a different story.
Got home, watched fma, stayed up thinking about her and tearing up, and went to bed. Now its today and the only way i'm coping is repeatedly listening to Rascal Flatts "My Wish" and "What Hurts the Most." I never thought it would be this hard. I'm going to go fap now (something I haven't done for 8 months) thx for reading.

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#7 - iflirtwithanyone (05/19/2015) [-]

I'm not gonna sit here and pretend to be sorry for you for two reasons.
1. You're right, I don't know you, at all.
2. I'm not sorry about it.

I know that's gonna come off as a dick thing to say, but it's really not. There is no reason to be. Does it suck? **** yeah it sucks. Is it the end of the world? **** no it's not. I'm gonna let you in on a little secret. I was in a very similar situation. The girl I was with had been raped on numerous occasions, along with all of her friends when they were little, by one friends dad who would drug them during sleep overs. He's in jail for ******* ever now, which I'm happy about. I fell hard for this girl. She had me doing absolutely ******* retarded things. We ended up breaking up when we weren't allowed to see each other anymore because we god caught ******* in school story for another time. Anyway, I was on lockdown after school for the rest of that year, which was a good 2 months. We just stopped talking at that point. I went off to college the next year, and she was in her senior year. One day, I decided to send her a text, because I hated how things ended and I still had a lot of feelings for her. That was, by far, the biggest mistake I made with this girl. As soon as I saw her again, over Christmas time, I fell in love again. I was happy as could be. I had the girl I loved back, and her parents were even happy about it. They invited me over for Christmas dinner, something they would have never done the first time we dated. They ******* hated me back then. Her dad pulled me aside and told me it's because of how happy she had been with me and how sad she had been since we split because I was the only one who made her forget about the **** she'd been through. I spent what was a happy six months with her again. When I had a free weekend at college, I was rushing the 3 hours home just so I could spend time with her. Fast forward to May of my Freshman year of college. Prom was coming up, and of course I was going to go with her. I couldn't think of anything to make me happier than to be with her and see her in a great dress. About a week before prom, she started getting distant and weird. One of her best friends was my absolute best friend, so I asked her if she had noticed anything. She said she seemed weird, but didn't know why. The day after prom, I got a text from my best friend, saying she saw my girlfriend and a guy that she had told me she had no interest in I had asked because I thought he was hot and it would have been a GREAT threesome leaving a hotel together. A week later, on her birthday, I broke up with her, with her continuing to tell me that she had no interest in him and that it was bull **** . I broke up with her in person and showed her a picture my friend had sent me of them kissing outside of the door to the hotel. The next day, her facebook changed to dating him, so I was a dick and sent a text saying "Not interested, huh?" and she said to **** off. So I did.

I know that's a wall of text, but read it. Now listen to me.

I don't mean just do the kid "I'm gonna nod and pretend I'm listening" thing.

I mean really ******* listen to me.

IT. DOES. NOT. ******* . MATTER.

It's gonna hurt. It's gonna sting. It's gonna be **** for a while. But you know what?

IT. DOES. NOT. ******* . MATTER.

Do you know why it doesn't ******* matter? Because you are still you. You aren't missing anything. Your heart will repair itself. You will heal.

And you know what? That's ******* awesome. You are ******* awesome. Remember that. There is a reason she liked you, and other girls will too. Things will change, and you will meet other people. It's gonna suck for a while, but you are going to feel ******* phenomenal in a month, maybe two. You won't ever forget her, and it will still hurt sometimes down the road, but you'll hurt and then remember how much better it made you, and how ******* awesome you are.

#8 to #7 - iflirtwithanyone (05/19/2015) [-]

One more thing darthlegolas.

No matter what. No matter how you feel. No matter how much you want to get back with her. It isn't a good idea. Not now at least. Sometime down the road? Maybe. But right now, it isn't worth it. No matter what you think. I have absolutely 0 doubt that she still cares about you. She may even still love you. But that doesn't mean you should be with her again. She started dating someone else for a reason. Let it take it's course. Then, evaluate where you are. Even then, I don't suggest it. Everything in this world that happens to you happens for a reason, and that reason is that it makes you stronger. You will grow so damn much from this. You will become so much better because of this. It's because of this that you'll meet someone else, someone better, someone who will last a life time. You're only 17. I know this is going to sound cliché, but you have your entire ******* life ahead of you. Live it. Love it. Learn from it. Take everything that happens to you and find a way to make it better for you. Find a way to grow from it. Be the most kick ass person you can be. Because you know what? When you do that, you will become one of the most kick ass people out there. You know what the trick to being successful and happy is? Be you. Do it for you. Don't do it all for someone else. Then, one day, you'll meet someone who is worth doing it for. You can start to do it for them. You may have a kid, and they are the only true exception to this rule. A wife may leave. A child? They are yours forever. They are worth everything you can give them. Until then though, you give yourself everything. Worry about you. Become the most happy and successful person out there. Help others become that from your experiences. When they ignore your advice, which they will, don't say I told you so. Be there, and pick them up and show them how to do it. Use this experience as a starting point. Use it to become a better you. A better you, means a better world. A better you is something that can grow and become the best you can and make everything yours. You can own this experience, and use it completely to your advantage. Do it.

On a side note, if **** happens, feel free to send me a message. I don't just mean involving this. Anything you throw at me, realistically at least, I've been through it. I may not be able to tell you what to do, but I can sure as **** tell you what didn't work for me.

#2 - metacobalion ONLINE (05/19/2015) [-]

I don't know if I should even say this because I don't know all the facts but it really sounds like she didn't want to break up with you but her mom forced her just to crush her. Life isn't a fairy tail and stuff is more likely to not go your way, but maybe you should try talking to her about it again and find out what she really feels. If only for closure. I mean if I was in your position and there was any doubt in my mind about it, I'd prefer if she just told me outright that she hated me than live with that uncertainty. but like I said I don't know all the facts, something just smells fishy here. idk tho

#3 to #2 - darthlegolas [OP](05/19/2015) [-]

Nearly certain "that's why mom..." was going to end with "actually liked you" or something like. But you are definitely right in thinking she still has feelings for me. Just the way I know her and how she acts, I can almost guarantee it. idk tho

#4 to #3 - metacobalion ONLINE (05/19/2015) [-]

Good luck anyway man, I hope it turns out well for both your sakes.
and have this unrelated webm, it might cheer you up a little.

#6 to #3 - siriusxd (05/19/2015) [-]

If you're going to see her every sunday, meta's right. You should probably get some sort of closure. I pulled a really stupid move and dated a coworker I had to see every other day. Makes it rather hard to move on if you have places you both have to be.

#5 - levitatingscrotum (05/19/2015) [-]

I could sugarcoat and all that, but from my own experience, just **** her. She kicked you in nuts, ****** you off, she even said she was on the verge of commiting sudoku and you saved her from all that **** . She should've known better than just breaking your heart. I know you may think that it was a mistake, mistakes happen, maybe she didn't mean it. It really depends. If you believe she's still too young to act wisely and is still a dumb teenager sorry for the insult , then try to do something, if you are concerned that she acts maturely and isn't a dumb teenager anymore, just tell her to **** off. I know it's hard, I was in a similar problem, it may hurt in the beggining, but you'll get out of it. The suffering from not being able to be with someone and even if you got back together, the fear of her leaving you again will strike you in every moment of weakness may not feel as bad as if you told her off and suffered from 'losing her' permanently. but the feeling of 'losing her' fill fade away with time, whereas the fear of her leaving you again will be constant and it will slowly drag you down.
tldr : if you have balls and believe she won't do that again, go for it m8. if you believe she's a bitch and acted nicely only because she was depressed and needed someone, just leave her be. I am a huge skeptic and pessimist, so there's that. Anyways, good luck, I hope it will work out the best way it could possibly work out, no matter what the best option would be.