Let's All Wallow in Self-Pity
Hello, FJ family
I know this is a bit of an odd post to see, (or at least since it's not admin posting it) but I felt as though some others on the site may need it. I know I sure as hell do. Tell me what's going on in your life. Let's all talk about it and make friends with each other. Feel free to downvote me. I'll understand considering how weird this post is.
I'll start with some **** that's been going on recently and ya'll can post your own life stories in the comments if you'd like.
I'm 20, studying Biochemistry (premed) at UGA (Go Dawgs). A few sundays ago, I finally got the balls to end things with this girl who cheated on me countless times and overall treated me like I had no worth. Before this point, I had become really good friends with the photographer for our band. She's 24 and she's so incredibly similar to me in literally every way. It was crazy and wonderful to have a friend like that. We would stay out well past 2 am, go downtown, and talk about all of our thoughts about everything. We did this literally every night for almost a month. She would often talk about her ex boyfriend and I'd also talk about all of my problems with this other girl. It was one of those friendships where you legitimately hope for the best for the other person's endeavors and legitimately care for their well-being. Anyway, we decided we were going to stay up all night on the Thursday after I ended everything with that other girl to watch the sunset and the sunrise together. For us it was kind of a symbolic gesture of watching this semester end while looking forward to the future. That night, we watched the movie "Once." If you haven't seen it, do it. It's ******* amazing and it's one of my favorites. Anyway, I realized that I had some pretty serious feelings for this girl regardless of how absolutely ****** the timing was given my recent involvement with the other girl. So, I told her about it and we talked about everything for a bit. She reciprocated those feelings and we decided we'd go out a few times to see where it goes. We ended up sleeping together that night and did wake up to see the sunrise. It was the first time in a long while that I was really excited about the future and I guess I got a little too hopeful. A few days went by and she wouldn't really talk to me a lot. So, eventually I asked her what was up. She told me that she didn't want any sort of relationship right now, that she wasn't over her ex, and that we needed some space from each other. I completely understand her not wanting to pursue anything with me and that's totally cool. Like I said, I truly want the best for her and I hope she's ok. I just don't understand why that means we can't even be friends now. I miss seeing her every night, having someone to talk to, having someone to tango dance with at a ****** concert, and someone to share my music with. I just miss having her as my friend.
I know this is a bit of an odd post to see, (or at least since it's not admin posting it) but I felt as though some others on the site may need it. I know I sure as hell do. Tell me what's going on in your life. Let's all talk about it and make friends with each other. Feel free to downvote me. I'll understand considering how weird this post is.
I'll start with some **** that's been going on recently and ya'll can post your own life stories in the comments if you'd like.
I'm 20, studying Biochemistry (premed) at UGA (Go Dawgs). A few sundays ago, I finally got the balls to end things with this girl who cheated on me countless times and overall treated me like I had no worth. Before this point, I had become really good friends with the photographer for our band. She's 24 and she's so incredibly similar to me in literally every way. It was crazy and wonderful to have a friend like that. We would stay out well past 2 am, go downtown, and talk about all of our thoughts about everything. We did this literally every night for almost a month. She would often talk about her ex boyfriend and I'd also talk about all of my problems with this other girl. It was one of those friendships where you legitimately hope for the best for the other person's endeavors and legitimately care for their well-being. Anyway, we decided we were going to stay up all night on the Thursday after I ended everything with that other girl to watch the sunset and the sunrise together. For us it was kind of a symbolic gesture of watching this semester end while looking forward to the future. That night, we watched the movie "Once." If you haven't seen it, do it. It's ******* amazing and it's one of my favorites. Anyway, I realized that I had some pretty serious feelings for this girl regardless of how absolutely ****** the timing was given my recent involvement with the other girl. So, I told her about it and we talked about everything for a bit. She reciprocated those feelings and we decided we'd go out a few times to see where it goes. We ended up sleeping together that night and did wake up to see the sunrise. It was the first time in a long while that I was really excited about the future and I guess I got a little too hopeful. A few days went by and she wouldn't really talk to me a lot. So, eventually I asked her what was up. She told me that she didn't want any sort of relationship right now, that she wasn't over her ex, and that we needed some space from each other. I completely understand her not wanting to pursue anything with me and that's totally cool. Like I said, I truly want the best for her and I hope she's ok. I just don't understand why that means we can't even be friends now. I miss seeing her every night, having someone to talk to, having someone to tango dance with at a ****** concert, and someone to share my music with. I just miss having her as my friend.
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