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I want to live

I realized I dont
warn to die.
NNW.. We
I kill like I wash‘?
o o W. Id been a
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grandmother fold me fold me
fold me
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ma goo.
mo be me
I believed her. I believed him. I believed her.
I believed that being born had
imprisoned them into a life
was poisoning feem.
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mistake :
men I need
to compensate for
mg existence.
to justify being alive.
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injure or pain)
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suddenly; swerve
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Abut if there were blink me out
n button I could push of existence, no
that would jdsf hesitation, I would
push it
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alive more,
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for the first time in 31 gears,
I diam my push that button.
I learned
Robin Williams killed himself.
I Imam I know mm his
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u public spycicle oi are We ones in
mourning -trm real pain.
I know I didn’ +
Feelly lance; him as
Ll real person.
but it hurts.
If hurts Haul’
gou' re nu here
and more.
If hurts flour gou
were on part of mg life
and goo purposely
ended gems.
Todai I realized that if the suicide of a stranger I never met
could feel like on personal. painful loss, how much worse would if
hurf mg own friends and lowly even more lose me?
My going B? going lo
have bad mam In push
dogs. Him swan.
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