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How FJ Saved My Life

 
Hey guys, this is hankhillofthe. The following is exactly what you read in the title, so if you don't like reading, go ahead and skip.

Those of you staying, thank you.

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How FJ Saved My Life. Hey guys, this is hankhillofthe. The following is exactly what you read in the title, so if you don't like reading, go ahead and skip. Tho
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How FJ Saved My Life. Hey guys, this is hankhillofthe. The following is exactly what you read in the title, so if you don't like reading, go ahead and skip. Tho
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How FJ Saved My Life. Hey guys, this is hankhillofthe. The following is exactly what you read in the title, so if you don't like reading, go ahead and skip. Tho

For reading through this, you truly do have my sincere thanks. It honestly was a bit hard re-living a lot of this hehe


Confessing to FunnyJunk: /channel/katawashoujo/Feel+story+and+thank+you+to+ks+board/TollGGb/

Rebuilding the bridge: /channel/katawashoujo/The+final+thank+you/asbmGnf/


You don't have to read either of those, they're just there for archiving purposes.

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User avatar #1 - skalias (03/23/2015) [-]
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#58 to #2 - plerp ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
What is your skype if you don't mind me asking? I want to message you whenever I can, about whatever I feel like~!
What is your skype if you don't mind me asking? I want to message you whenever I can, about whatever I feel like~!
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User avatar #72 to #58 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/24/2015) [-]
Instant Message me and I'll tell ya
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#118 to #2 - notreposter (03/24/2015) [-]
this IS fj after all
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#34 - joekerr (03/23/2015) [-]
tl;dr attention whore gets his **** together and becomes popular Sorry, but I'm kind of conflicted about this. To be honest, I'm mostly bored, but also keep wondering why you think FJ and KS saved your life. Your life was saved because you clinged on it long enough to find another source of happiness - FJ / KS - that substiuted the oneitis you had with "Sarah", which then again you substituted with Alice and then again with pursuing your talents your mentioned early in the beginning. This probably comes rather harsh, but that's also because I see the similiarities I have to you and contrasting opposites (not going to go into much detail). You're an extrovert, artistic driven and pretty emotional person. Most likely you're left handed, aren't you? Right half of the brain bla bla You're one of the victims of today's bad educational system ... that early nihilistic approach to life hints on you being rather unchallenged, maybe not challenged at all, because nothing interested you imho. Until you smelled arts, which brought you Sarah, and so on. That childhood thing - difficulty finding friends - is similiar to me. Just not that I was demanding or attention whoring, more like friendly, naive labrador that annoys people. Dunno, might just have been the kind of childhood friend you lacked. I'm really happy for you that life has changed for you by 180 ° and you thrive in what you're doing. But honestly, you never had anything worse than extreme self-pity. You just needed a push away from there and you had it. The thing that saved your life was the drive to become a better person, this is the stuff suicidal people need to develop. FJ may have made it possible, but it was you who did take action. Well, I wish you good luck though. You have the best conditions.
tl;dr attention whore gets his **** together and becomes popular

Sorry, but I'm kind of conflicted about this. To be honest, I'm mostly bored, but also keep wondering why you think FJ and KS saved your life. Your life was saved because you clinged on it long enough to find another source of happiness - FJ / KS - that substiuted the oneitis you had with "Sarah", which then again you substituted with Alice and then again with pursuing your talents your mentioned early in the beginning.

This probably comes rather harsh, but that's also because I see the similiarities I have to you and contrasting opposites (not going to go into much detail). You're an extrovert, artistic driven and pretty emotional person. Most likely you're left handed, aren't you? Right half of the brain bla bla
You're one of the victims of today's bad educational system ... that early nihilistic approach to life hints on you being rather unchallenged, maybe not challenged at all, because nothing interested you imho. Until you smelled arts, which brought you Sarah, and so on.

That childhood thing - difficulty finding friends - is similiar to me. Just not that I was demanding or attention whoring, more like friendly, naive labrador that annoys people. Dunno, might just have been the kind of childhood friend you lacked.

I'm really happy for you that life has changed for you by 180 ° and you thrive in what you're doing. But honestly, you never had anything worse than extreme self-pity. You just needed a push away from there and you had it. The thing that saved your life was the drive to become a better person, this is the stuff suicidal people need to develop. FJ may have made it possible, but it was you who did take action.

Well, I wish you good luck though. You have the best conditions.
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User avatar #36 to #34 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/23/2015) [-]
Actually I'm incredibly introverted and have social anxiety like crazy. I just really, reallylike people.

Yes, it was me that saved my life, but without FJ being the catalyst for the right things coming to me, I never would have.

KS let me express all those emotions that were holding me back, and not just Alice, but a lot of the comments in my confession post inspired me to be a better person.

Call me a sensationalist. I'd just rather show my sincere appreciation for those who came into my life rather than my pride in myself for being who I am today.

If it hadn't have been for FJ, I probably would've spent the rest of my life chasing romance without ever getting my **** together.

But hey, thanks for your regards and for sharing what was on your mind.
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User avatar #37 to #36 - joekerr (03/24/2015) [-]
I was just writing a PN to you, because I regret being too harsh ... good thing I didn't delete the comment yet, huh? Well, let's start with that first: Sorry. You puked your life into here sincerily, which I treated unappropriately.

Well, I'm surprised that you consider yourself introverted. I thought those videos you made recently as a group project came naturally, but I didn't imagine any overcoming.

I'm trying to implay that anything could have been the catalyst, but well, it did work out fine with FJ. Just wanted to put some light on another side from that could be viewn.

I won't call you a sensationalist for that. I appreciate modesty above many things, as most of our Generation Y are raised to be narcists that get medals for participation. I just found it noteworthy to point out, that all the good things that came to you, came from yourself. That's some important insight, someone who hase overcome depression should be allowed to say with pride. Being to modest makes me come to another thing I forgot to address. You were a "beta" by the book (cringy, oneitis, jealous, etc.; I guess you came across enough Pick Up artist stuff to know what I'm talking about) and then you became more "alpha". As FJ is a catalysator for your progress, so is Alice.

I also doubt that you wouldn't have got your **** together, but well, ... I don't know **** about you. As I said, I'm happy for you the things turned out the way they did.

You're welcome. Glad you're not as offended as I expected in hindsight. The sugarcoating and "oh my feelz" shall come frome the others though, know some other stuff, but that's too unrelated.
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User avatar #38 to #37 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/24/2015) [-]
Nah you're alright, I'm hard to offend.

Every day is seriously still a struggle like it has been since all that time ago. It's just that now, not only have I gotten better at dealing with it, I thrive and live off of the drive of fighting those bad habit thoughts and behaviors.

Really, you're totally right. I don't give myself enough credit.

I really do treasure comments like this. In the confession post, I still think about that top comment rarely. I highly value true and honest criticism; I didn't get enough of it.

And you're also totally right about being unchallenged. Having 'seemingly everyone in my life look up to me', when I look at it, really isn't a huge feat. I come from the #1 most depressed state in the US near the #1 most depressed district. Smiling is a feat. Walking up to a stranger and saying 'hi' is godlike. Having passion? I'm pretty sure every girl in my graduating class went into marketing save for a select few.

So hey, thanks. But I'm not left-handed
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User avatar #40 to #38 - joekerr (03/24/2015) [-]
Nah you're alright, I'm hard to offend. That's really rare with most of fj. All that bait taking ... jesus man.

You kind of got used to it, learned how to deal with it. But srsly, everybody is like that. Those who aren't are superficial fakes, liars ... even if they lie to themselves. Or just goddamn lucky to be dumb as **** . Ignorance is a bliss.

Look, I doubt you'll get overconfident any time soon, so it's pretty damn alright.

Ah, don't overevaluate this.

And that's one of the biggest oversimplified issues we have in the western world. Making standards low so that everybody gets equal is depressing dumb **** .
I know so many people that should have gone into marketing, because they're talentless fools.

Again, you're welcome. Let's have a beer over the internet, shall we? "But I'm not left-handed " -> My argumentation-chain already broke when you weren't extroverted. I was a little bit fast with that right-brain stereotype, but I think it still applies in major aspects.
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User avatar #41 to #40 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/24/2015) [-]
I only started drinking recently, but **** yes.
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#42 to #41 - joekerr (03/24/2015) [-]
What do we have here ... Guinnes it shall be.
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User avatar #43 to #42 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/24/2015) [-]
Wish I had a Guinness. I've got me a Heineken.
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#47 to #43 - odstnsg (03/24/2015) [-]
something "special" for you
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User avatar #48 to #47 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/24/2015) [-]
:C
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User avatar #49 to #48 - odstnsg (03/24/2015) [-]
it's the best german lager
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User avatar #73 to #49 - joekerr (03/24/2015) [-]
I have Franziskaner Royale here, I think that's a better Weizen.
Also, living in the Rhineland, I prefer my Alt the most.
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User avatar #83 to #73 - odstnsg (03/24/2015) [-]
I think Franziskaner is as bad as Paulaner, but on the other hand I'm not much of a Weizen fan
Do you know Gold Ochsen?
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User avatar #84 to #83 - joekerr (03/24/2015) [-]
Unfortunately, no.
Do you know Füchschen or Schuhmacher Alt Bier?
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User avatar #85 to #84 - odstnsg (03/24/2015) [-]
I have seen Schumacher Alt in a store but didn't buy it ^^
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User avatar #86 to #85 - joekerr (03/24/2015) [-]
Where do you live at? Schuhmacher is only sold in vicnity of Düsseldorf.
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User avatar #88 to #86 - odstnsg (03/24/2015) [-]
really? than I must be mistaken it for a different beer
and I live in saxony
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User avatar #44 to #43 - joekerr (03/24/2015) [-]
My condolences.
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User avatar #45 to #44 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/24/2015) [-]
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User avatar #95 - kikisu (03/24/2015) [-]
Even before I was born, I was his.
Supposedly.
At the age of 6 months, I would cry for my mother, and only her, for my father I was silent.
At the age of 6 years, I watched my father beat my mother during a camping trip, knocking over both her and a picnic table.
At 6 years old, I was told it was her own fault, that she was being unreasonable.
At 6 years old, I believed it.
At 7 years old, I watched my dad kick my bestfriend, the most loving husky you ever met, because she wanted his hotdog.
At 7 years old, I hated, absolutely hated the color green, because it was a corruption of his favorite, and by extension my favorite, color, yellow.
At 8 years old, I was a happy 4th grader, expecting her baby brother any moment now.
By the age of 10, I had tried to commit suicide 4 times.
By the age of 10, I had tried to throw myself into traffic, take an entire bottle of sleeping pills, hang myself, and purposely wandered into an incredibly dangerous neighborhood.
At the age of 10, I tried to get myself murdered by an inner city druggy.
At the age of 12, I was dead, a machine that was only kept alive by a mother who loved me enough to keep me alive, but did not love me nor herself enough to leave the one who killed me.
By the age of 14, I had increased my suicide attempts from 4 to 19.
And at the age of 15, he was gone.
And at the age of 15, I was free.
I am free.
Free.

We love you bro
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User avatar #111 to #95 - ayumu ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Any long lasting physical stuff you're gonna have to deal with because of the **** you've been through?
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User avatar #119 to #111 - kikisu (03/25/2015) [-]
Yes I do. My father was medically neglectful, so my lazy eye never got fixed and my right leg turns in when I walk, making me look funny. It also just kinda ****** with my developing body in general. I don't look like a hunch back, but internally I'm pretty screwed up.
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User avatar #120 to #119 - ayumu ONLINE (03/25/2015) [-]
****** rough
Also sorry for asking, realized it was kinda rude afterwards. Curiosity got the better of me.
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User avatar #121 to #120 - kikisu (03/25/2015) [-]
Nah don't be. Its a fair question. And honestly, looking at me you wouldn't know U was pretty bad off.
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#114 to #95 - restuun (03/24/2015) [-]
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#10 - ihearcolors (03/23/2015) [-]
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User avatar #76 - zantox (03/24/2015) [-]
You have a nice dick Hankhillofthe, never forget that!
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User avatar #77 to #76 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/24/2015) [-]
c:
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User avatar #78 to #77 - zantox (03/24/2015) [-]
If you ever plan on putting out some more, tell me bro. no homo.
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#24 - mudkipfucker ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
you're one of the best users here, hankhillofthe
you're one of the best users here, hankhillofthe
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User avatar #25 to #24 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/23/2015) [-]
Thanks a lot, muddy.

I'm glad I actually met you.
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User avatar #8 - whyheloitisijimble (03/23/2015) [-]
Does the love of.

Am new user, but still, does the love and think you are amaze man.
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User avatar #125 to #8 - cattestacles (03/29/2015) [-]
When you listen to music, is it a ******* ?
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User avatar #128 to #125 - whyheloitisijimble (03/29/2015) [-]
Only sometime
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User avatar #9 to #8 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/23/2015) [-]
Does a have of always like for jimble.

thank
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#14 - mystacheisop (03/23/2015) [-]
TY for the story b0ss
Best girl any of you cunts disagree you better back the **** up before you get smacked the **** up
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User avatar #15 to #14 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/23/2015) [-]
Emi is my waifu
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User avatar #90 - mendelevium (03/24/2015) [-]
tl;dr
post more nudes
-with love Mendelevium
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#29 - slayerdog ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
When you put my comment in "Jet Fuel Can't Melt Steel Beams", you made me a FJer. I have yet to not check the site at least once a day. I CAN'T LEAVE! WHY HAVE YOU DONE THIS TO ME? In all seriousness, you are an amazing bastard.
When you put my comment in "Jet Fuel Can't Melt Steel Beams", you made me a FJer.
I have yet to not check the site at least once a day.
I CAN'T LEAVE!
WHY HAVE YOU DONE THIS TO ME?
In all seriousness, you are an amazing bastard.
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User avatar #112 to #29 - ayumu ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
You can check out, but never leave
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#21 - kakakarrotcake (03/23/2015) [-]
Why must you do this to me Congrats man! Hopefully a lot of people feeling down on their luck can see this and try and make the change you did. I can honestly say you are a true inspiration
Why must you do this to me Congrats man! Hopefully a lot of people feeling down on their luck can see this and try and make the change you did. I can honestly say you are a true inspiration
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#4 - corporate ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
We'll always be your family hank. We love you!
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#6 to #4 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/23/2015) [-]
Love you brudda.
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User avatar #79 - infernalinsolence (03/24/2015) [-]
You, sir, are an inspiration to those who self-loathe. Honestly. This story is heart-wrenching, but a worthy one to tell. Thank you for sharing.
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#75 - mobilebull (03/24/2015) [-]
**mobilebull used "*roll picture*"**
**mobilebull rolled image**

hankhillofthe The chosen, The prophet.
You are a true legend
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#67 - anon (03/24/2015) [-]
I grew up without a mother, (She was too busy being a whore).
My father never accepted me for who I am. (When he figured out I was bisexual).
Tried to bond with mother, but she's in an abusive relationship.
Every time I visited this woman, there was always someone there that mentally, physically or sexually abused me. (11-15 Age).
In High School, I start cutting myself. I was planning on suicide.
Knives were removed. I would break stuff and cut myself. I became addicted to it.
I didn't want my dad to see what I was doing. So I moved into my trashy mother's house.
I started doing drugs because my dad hated my life style and I gave up.
The only thing that saved me was Halo.
That's where I met my spouse.
He saved my life.


I have always been on FJ. I know how it's feels to want to die. I may have not told FJ my story before. But you've always been family.
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#69 to #67 - anon (03/24/2015) [-]
Well your father is right to disown you for being an attention seeking faggot that enjoys getting dick in the ass.

Burn in hell cock fondler
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#103 to #69 - bibbins (03/24/2015) [-]
Listen here you little piece of **** , how about you log in and say that like a man? That was rude and it was beyond disgusting. You're the one who's attention seeking with your **** insults and douche baggery. Now Don't be a smart ass and say "Now you're attention whoring too" because I'm not the one being a little pussy right now. How do we know you're not just ************ your past just to redeem yourself? Instead of being an ass wipe how about learning from your **** past and being better than your mom and dad? Now get off your high horse and go away.
Listen here you little piece of **** , how about you log in and say that like a man? That was rude and it was beyond disgusting. You're the one who's attention seeking with your **** insults and douche baggery. Now Don't be a smart ass and say "Now you're attention whoring too" because I'm not the one being a little pussy right now. How do we know you're not just ************ your past just to redeem yourself? Instead of being an ass wipe how about learning from your **** past and being better than your mom and dad? Now get off your high horse and go away.
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User avatar #71 to #67 - hankhillofthe [OP](03/24/2015) [-]
Ignore that anon. That was very heartfelt.

You'll always be my family, too.
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#87 - kingdaniel (03/24/2015) [-]
You're a great guy, honestly. But whoa, do you really expect me to read all that **** ?
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#3 - ugoboom ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
just kidding, i'll read later
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#96 - sozeiv (03/24/2015) [-]
nobody cares who you are or what you did. **** off now
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#63 - retanthe (03/24/2015) [-]
No, hankhillofthe.

Thank YOU
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