Something similar is happening to me right now:
GF: You are kind, gentle, funny, handsome, hot and you write and do a lot of interesting things...but I just need some time alone.
Well **** me, I don't know what to do except give her the time alone.....and I really started to like her a lot.
Should have been a red flag. If she'd do it to someone else, she'd do it to you.
it sucks but its true.
That, or she didn't really leave him, or shes back with him, etc. An infinite number of possibilities, but, for your own good, you should move on to prevent getting hurt more.
Yeah I calculated those possibilities, as far as I know she is not that kind, but who knows she might use me to get revenge or just made a mistake. I guess I'll move on, thanks for the reply. It always help to talk to someone about it.
I was with my ex for 4 years, we got together october 15th in 2010, and I left her on october 15th in 2014. The first 2 years were the greatest years of my life, but now I regret them dearly. Its funny how something that brought so much joy can also destroy you for years to come.
Anyways, in the last 2 years we were together, I stayed extremely faithful. I'd never done anything with another girl while we were together. No hugging, holding hands or other small petty stuff etc.
She decided that I had cheated on her. So she cheated on me. With my best friend at the time. Then, once I found out, I left her, but she came back to me begging for forgiveness. I blocked my best friend out of my life, still haven't talked to him even now. Before she had sex with my friend, she had planned on having sex with this other guy, but, as far as I know (Which I could be wrong about unfortunately) - that never happened.
The farthest I know they got was kissing. Keep in mind, that was while we were together. And this was all to "get back at you (me) for cheating" - she had told me numerous times over the phone she was going to go sleep with him, and I proceeded to beg her not to.
But, back to my old best friend, she had moved to another town where my friend had been living. She claims she got bullied in school, and she used my best friend to defend against bullies, by dating him. She claimed that she didn't get bullied when he was around. This went on for months without me knowing. Once I found out, it went on for months more - but she had claimed it stopped. I had access to some of her personal accounts, emails etc. One day, I logged into her email because I was signing her up for something, I think netflix or some **** like that - but I noticed she had emails from my old best friend - calling her babe etc, so I checked her outgoing emails, and found her sending nude pics of herself to him. We broke up for awhile longer, but ended up getting back together.
I was really in love with her. She always convinced me it was my fault, and that she would stop if I got better. So I tried.
Fast forward a few months, she moved back to my town, and things got better. Way better.
She had, and still has (Though I don't talk to her anymore, I don't want to get pulled back in so I ignore her texts and called and blocked her on facebook) depression issues, such as self harm etc, and she always used that against me up until the point that I started having the same problems, then she used it against me more, saying she is doing it because I am (self harm etc) (Keep in mind all the depression etc all started at around our 1 year mark, but it came from other stress, and thats when I started too, but it wasn't really used against me back then the same way. Obviously we supported eachother and tried to get eachother to stop to no avail.
Anyways, fast forward a few more months - I forgot to mention she worked/works at Wendys (Not sure if you have that where you are, its a burger place) and at the time I worked at Dominos - both in different cities.
Anyways, she meets this guy there, and she claims she never cheated on me with him, but she left me for him. Every day I would beg her to take me back, for several months.
Eventually she finally comes back. I don't know if she ever cheated on me with him, but I know that she wouldn't stop talking to him. I begged her multiple times to stop, and she said she would, and either stopped or hid it from me for a few weeks, and then repeat the process.
These are the only times I know of her cheating, but there could be more.
I still love her very much and wish things had worked out, but alas, the world is a cruel place.
There is more to the story, but what I already said is mostly personal, but I share this story to warn others.
And now I feel sick to my stomach, and have run out of characters so, goday mate.
TLR - I've been cheated on. It sucks. Move on, for your own sake.
Sorry that you had to go through that. I know how being cheated feels, my first relationship started that way and it ****** me up real good, that's why I have some sort of trust issues but I usually can hide them well.
Anyway thanks for sharing this thing, I am really sorry again you had to go through the pain of remembering and I will try to learn from your story and see where this takes me. After all there are many fish in the sea, in this cruel and cold sea.
No problem. I have major trust issues as well, I'm trying to get over them though and let more people in. Its pretty hard to do, but I'm getting there.
As you said, it always helps to talk about it. Thanks for listening.
I tried very hard to feel some pity towards you. But the only thing i feel is disgust.
You wonder why she ****** the whole fire department while you were thinking about love ?
Well its because you are a beta.
You are the kind of guy that would get prison raped at the showers without even dropping the soap...
"I still love her very much and wish things had worked out."
You never got over it, you are still just the same idiot you were then as you are now.
And there is a chance that you never will get over it no matter how hard you try.
You know something... Just get back together with her and tell her to go have sex with somebody and get pregnant.
Then marry her and raise the child as your own.
I mean lets be serious there is no point in delaying the inevitable.
I am going to tell you something about me. I never considered suicide as a option to anything ...but after reading your little story. If i were in your shoes id just have a double order of 12 gauge at dawn.
I didn't come here to get pity, and I couldn't care less that you don't pity my situation. I came here to help Shole stay away from the position I have been in, and warm him what may be happening with a personal story of what happened to me.
Just because I still feel love towards her, that does not mean its inevitable to get back together with her - I don't even talk to her anymore, and I could never forgive her.
You don't know my whole story, you don't know her whole story.
We've been broken up for almost an entire year at this point, and I have moved on - I have an amazing girlfriend that my feelings are getting very strong for. I'm not living in the past, but obviously, I told my story to Shole - which caused me to think about it temporarily. And yes, it still hurts, but its in the past. Its gone. Its done. Its over with.
So, the fact that I wish that it had worked out - and by saying that I mean none of the cheating or bad parts in the relationship happened - that is saying I haven't moved on?
So because I wish something had been less painful, I haven't moved on. Interesting.
You can love someone and not be attached to them. My love for her used to be far greater then it is now, but she will always have a place in my heart - she was my first everything, from holding hands to having sex and that can never be changed.
"she will always have a place in my heart" That has to be the most pathetic **** i have ever heard.
So she ***** somebody else and you have a place in your heart.
"Every day I would beg her to take me back, for several months. "
You are the embodiment of the word pussy.
You beg a ******* slut to take you back? Dude go **** yourself , at least have some gray matter and don't post embarrassing **** like this.
At the time, she always somehow convinced me it was my fault.
Obviously, I see now that it was never my fault. Thats why I begged her back then, because she made me feel like it was my fault.
Emotional abuse is a thing, and happens often.
Obviously, I would not take her back now. I wouldn't even consider it for a second.
And as I said earlier, she was my first everything - of course she will be remembered throughout my life as "My First" - but that is in the past, and it doesn't matter, and can't be changed. That's the point.
The point of me sharing my story was to help another person with their situation. It's not even any of your business, and what I do with my story does not pertain, or effect you. Just don't ******* read it.
That's exactly the reason why this society is so ****** up and monogamy seems so impossible nowadays.
You **** probably never really loved someone, cause real love doesn't just end. It'll be there until you die.
You can hate that person more than anyone, not ever wanting a relationship with them again, but that won't change the fact that you were deeply in love with them and that sticks with you.
You can move on, and start loving someone else. Maybe even more so than before. But she'll be always there, in the back of your head. Like **** , it's not that all you had were bad times.
I agree with him delaying the inevitable, but he was true to himself and that's what actually is important.
You can be faithful, but you also have to be in control of the relationship.
None of that we complete each other ******** .
You must show woman that you are a force to reckon with and that you don't take **** from nobody.
Otherwise the woman will just find a man that knows how to be a leader.
The rest is just nonsense like lovey dovey ********* that makes imbeciles buy gifts for a woman that doesn't respect them.
So yeah broke up with her and won't message her at all. See what will happen.
Anyway let me tell you this, everyone deals with this differently. I for example try to find another one asap due just because that's how i deal with this.
The thing is that we are all different and have different reactions, but all of us get sad no matter what(unless she/he didn't mean anything to you, even then you get a bit upset). For me I think we should all do what we think is right, learn from our mistakes and just make the bes of the future, because the past won't really do much for us anyway.
"She broke up with me"
"Did she tell you why?"
"Yeah she gave me a bunch of crap about me not listening to her enough I don't know I wasn't paying attention"