Refresh Comments
Anonymous comments allowed.
43 comments displayed.
#9
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] 
Well I've never fully shared my shroom trip so here we go:
(to the best of my memory)
Between difficult life and suicidal tendencies, I was pretty much near the end of my ropes. Thought " **** it, might as well go shrooming." Ordered online, was paranoid until the day I received. Took a little as a test run. Just felt some body effects (happy, pain killer, etc.), nothing much, my sense of taste became god tier and I had the best left over tai food ever. Almost cried at how good it was. Felt sad for a while though.
Real trip came a couple days later. Little brother was home. I couldn't wait any longer. Put the kettle (warm water not boiling), poured the powdered shrooms and made tea. Drank it all.
Everything is fine. About 30 minutes pass, begin to notice that light is becoming a bit... more fluid. My computer screen becomes enormous. Brother comes in. I can still talk and function normally so it's all good. I play some games because why not. It starts getting heavier. Father calls, face time to boot. Oh **** .jpeg. Focus. Answer simply. Ignore her faltering voice and image. Manage to get away with. turn off games. After a little browsing, I go to the bathroom. Look at myself in the mirror. I see myself, but at the same time not myself. Like another version of me. Can't help but smile. See cartoony version of myself, then back to another me. Suppress my laughs. Laugh internally. It's so funny. I feel great. Mirrors surrounded me so the sense of a warped dimension rise. Feels good man.
Leave bathroom. Realize, the effects are really starting to set in. I can here the gunshots of the Call of Duty, my brother is playing games, so I know he'll be occupied for a long while so I feel safe. As I walk to my room through kitchen I realize that I'm entering another reality. Dimensions are warping. The rooms are stretching and becoming bigger. Things even look different. It's amazing. The colors! I see a lot of purple. Looks good. Feels good.
continued below,
stickied
(to the best of my memory)
Between difficult life and suicidal tendencies, I was pretty much near the end of my ropes. Thought " **** it, might as well go shrooming." Ordered online, was paranoid until the day I received. Took a little as a test run. Just felt some body effects (happy, pain killer, etc.), nothing much, my sense of taste became god tier and I had the best left over tai food ever. Almost cried at how good it was. Felt sad for a while though.
Real trip came a couple days later. Little brother was home. I couldn't wait any longer. Put the kettle (warm water not boiling), poured the powdered shrooms and made tea. Drank it all.
Everything is fine. About 30 minutes pass, begin to notice that light is becoming a bit... more fluid. My computer screen becomes enormous. Brother comes in. I can still talk and function normally so it's all good. I play some games because why not. It starts getting heavier. Father calls, face time to boot. Oh **** .jpeg. Focus. Answer simply. Ignore her faltering voice and image. Manage to get away with. turn off games. After a little browsing, I go to the bathroom. Look at myself in the mirror. I see myself, but at the same time not myself. Like another version of me. Can't help but smile. See cartoony version of myself, then back to another me. Suppress my laughs. Laugh internally. It's so funny. I feel great. Mirrors surrounded me so the sense of a warped dimension rise. Feels good man.
Leave bathroom. Realize, the effects are really starting to set in. I can here the gunshots of the Call of Duty, my brother is playing games, so I know he'll be occupied for a long while so I feel safe. As I walk to my room through kitchen I realize that I'm entering another reality. Dimensions are warping. The rooms are stretching and becoming bigger. Things even look different. It's amazing. The colors! I see a lot of purple. Looks good. Feels good.
continued below,
#10 to #9
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] My mind, as always, is strong. I already tried browsing the internet and playing games, now I want to do something I’ve always wanted to do on Shrooms, take a shower! Gather clothes somehow. Begin to feel transcendent. By the time I next open the door it’s full blown. I am in another reality. It’s no longer our world. It’s the true world. It’s the hidden dimension in our dimension. Awkwardly mention to brother I’m going to shower, as I usually do. Still afraid I’ll get caught at this point. The hallway to the bathroom looks kind of dark and like a castle/old mansion hallway and stretches outward. I walk for what feels like a while, and reach the bathroom. This is amazing. I’m wonderland. It’s unlike anything you’ve ever seen. Unlike anything you’ve ever experienced. This is transcendence. Enter bathroom. Undress myself. Lock door.
The bathroom world is noticeably less warped. I can here a few strange sounds, but all are pleasant. After relieving myself on the toilet, I kneel down on the matt in front of the shower door. My vision becomes that of a hawk. I can see every single fiber even though my head is far away. I look closer and notice that I can see every detail, like a warp drive downwards I’m seeing the micro world. “Amazing” I thought to myself.
The bathroom world is noticeably less warped. I can here a few strange sounds, but all are pleasant. After relieving myself on the toilet, I kneel down on the matt in front of the shower door. My vision becomes that of a hawk. I can see every single fiber even though my head is far away. I look closer and notice that I can see every detail, like a warp drive downwards I’m seeing the micro world. “Amazing” I thought to myself.
#11 to #10
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] After that I turned off the light and started the shower. The sound of rushing water. I felt it deep inside me. It was at this point that my senses started to change and get mixed up. Through memory I put the water on warm (no danger of burns since company ****** with the handle) Anyways when the water hit me, it wasn’t like it was hitting me. I felt the water flowing through me. Around me, inside of me. It was so strange, but so welcome. Like light bouncing off my skin. And flowing over and through my face. I sat for a while, looking outside the glass door at the transcendent lights. I imagined I was in a rainforest, and when I closed my eyes I was there. I was sitting in the rainforest, the trees, the plants, the sounds… it was beautiful. It was raining. I sat there for a while. Pondering my place in the world. After a while I got up. This was when I saw Aztec lines appear before me. Like streaks of brilliant light, they formed a gate before me. That gate opened and the lights shot through me. Inside of me. I felt it in my heart and in my core. And in that moment I understood. This was meant for me, and I gladly accepted it.
#12 to #11
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] When I was satisfied I left the shower and got dressed. Fear suddenly overtook me. I was really in it now, what if my brother noticed? I didn’t want to be caught. The thought went through my head “I could kill him right now”. But like I said, my mind is strong. I instantly pictured myself in regret afterwards, in jail; I was very disturbed by this. “How the **** could I allow the thought to cross my mind!?” “Drugs are no excuse!” But then it hit me. I didn’t want to kill my brother. That wasn’t what this was about. I was afraid. And in natural instinct and defense my first instinct was to destroy, the source of my fear. And in that moment I realized that there was nothing to be afraid of. I could and never would harm my brother. And I learned something about myself on that day. Human beings are afraid, we’re so afraid. Even when we aren’t honest with ourselves, our hearts know. After feeling better I scurried to my room, and prepared for bed.
#13 to #12
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] I got out my Zune. My headphones were tangled. Infinite tangles. Somehow I managed to undo the knot. My fingers did the work even though I couldn’t visually tell what was happening. I listened to music. It sounded okay but not particularly amazing. After a while I got bored and got out the videos I had prepared beforehand. I watched all of them. They were… absolutely amazing. So… beautiful. The lights… the fractals… the journey… the music coupled with it. It spoke to me. Especially one video. Watching it brought tears to my eyes. My brain and soul vibrated with it. It was awe inspiring. In every sense of the phrase.
And that’s pretty much where the trips ends. Everything else was just me trying to fall asleep. I was too afraid to go to the bathroom in my state (parents returned eventually) so after peeing a in a bottle I peed in a towel (repeatedly) (my body is weak, I have some health problems so anything (like Shrooms) is a huge strain). And I shoved that towel under my bed. To be dealt with in the morning. I woke up the next morning. With a few hours of sleep. But I felt… how do I put it? Refreshed. I felt born anew. I didn’t think about dying. I just thought “I’m alive.”
It was the most beautiful and meaningful experience I’ve ever had in my entire life. I certainly don’t regret it. People don’t seem to understand drugs, and want I felt really lived up to one of the names for Shrooms in another culture. “The Flesh of God.” I would do it again, in fact I plan to. I want to return to that world I briefly visited. Properly and without stress or fear this time. It was worth it. Every second. And I’ll never ever forget it.
And that’s pretty much where the trips ends. Everything else was just me trying to fall asleep. I was too afraid to go to the bathroom in my state (parents returned eventually) so after peeing a in a bottle I peed in a towel (repeatedly) (my body is weak, I have some health problems so anything (like Shrooms) is a huge strain). And I shoved that towel under my bed. To be dealt with in the morning. I woke up the next morning. With a few hours of sleep. But I felt… how do I put it? Refreshed. I felt born anew. I didn’t think about dying. I just thought “I’m alive.”
It was the most beautiful and meaningful experience I’ve ever had in my entire life. I certainly don’t regret it. People don’t seem to understand drugs, and want I felt really lived up to one of the names for Shrooms in another culture. “The Flesh of God.” I would do it again, in fact I plan to. I want to return to that world I briefly visited. Properly and without stress or fear this time. It was worth it. Every second. And I’ll never ever forget it.
#239 to #13
-
xxTheJesterxx (11/07/2014) [-] It's been a decent while since you wrote this story, but I saw you link it in somewhere else, so I decided to read it.
That **** sounds awesome, I saw you also mentioned you do/have done WILD before. I actually have a background somewhat similar to you, where I was dealing with extreme depression, anxiety, and pain, and it just got worse by the day, until everything was just pure hell.
The doctors wouldn't do ******* jack **** , just sit there and say "deal with it", which only made me feel worse about myself.
Eventually, I found someone talk about lucid dreaming, and got invested in it. For about 2 years I very avidly followed it, convinced it could be the key to saving myself. Unfortunately, my lucid dreaming goal became an obsession, and I became so wrapped in trying to get anything that I pretty much screwed myself. I ****** up reality checks, had that thought in the back of my mind that I couldn't do it, etc. After 2 years of not having a lucid dream, I think in ways it became evident I was getting nowhere. Eventually I started taking antidepressants after changing insurance, with doctors that actually cared. Problem is, it kind of ***** with lucid dreaming, so I had to somewhat give up.
But anyway, this story has been going on forever. Even though I've felt way better lately, I've always wished I could enter that kind of state, whether through lucid dreaming or drugs. I never have had interest in any drugs other than LSD/shrooms. If you gave any other drug to me for free, I probably wouldn't take it, just because I don't really care. But psychedelics have always interested me greatly, I hope to experience them before too awfully long. Great story, stuff like that always just seems incredible to me.
I have no idea if you will even read this, I don't really mind though. It's just unusual to see other people talk about experiences like that, so I usually like to read them. And then write 50 pages in response. Good luck in your future my friend
That **** sounds awesome, I saw you also mentioned you do/have done WILD before. I actually have a background somewhat similar to you, where I was dealing with extreme depression, anxiety, and pain, and it just got worse by the day, until everything was just pure hell.
The doctors wouldn't do ******* jack **** , just sit there and say "deal with it", which only made me feel worse about myself.
Eventually, I found someone talk about lucid dreaming, and got invested in it. For about 2 years I very avidly followed it, convinced it could be the key to saving myself. Unfortunately, my lucid dreaming goal became an obsession, and I became so wrapped in trying to get anything that I pretty much screwed myself. I ****** up reality checks, had that thought in the back of my mind that I couldn't do it, etc. After 2 years of not having a lucid dream, I think in ways it became evident I was getting nowhere. Eventually I started taking antidepressants after changing insurance, with doctors that actually cared. Problem is, it kind of ***** with lucid dreaming, so I had to somewhat give up.
But anyway, this story has been going on forever. Even though I've felt way better lately, I've always wished I could enter that kind of state, whether through lucid dreaming or drugs. I never have had interest in any drugs other than LSD/shrooms. If you gave any other drug to me for free, I probably wouldn't take it, just because I don't really care. But psychedelics have always interested me greatly, I hope to experience them before too awfully long. Great story, stuff like that always just seems incredible to me.
I have no idea if you will even read this, I don't really mind though. It's just unusual to see other people talk about experiences like that, so I usually like to read them. And then write 50 pages in response. Good luck in your future my friend
#236 to #13
-
rokkarokkaali (02/23/2014) [-] soundcloud.com/kinesthetiac/sets/holy-shit-im-a-werewolf-pt-1
If you do it again listen to this or another song from the album
If you do it again listen to this or another song from the album
#210 to #13
-
elcreepo ONLINE (01/07/2014) [-] Careful, if shrooms are heavy on your body you do not want to get hooked on the high and end up accidentally sending yourself on either a nightmare trip, or death.
I actually think death is the better alternative...those nightmare trips will make you loose trust in even yourself to know what is going on, the fear you experience will be so real, with no cause... and the worst part is, it feels like it will never end.
Some people who've never had em want them, then when they get them, they end up not even wanting to go on rollercoasters anymore for fear of fear itself.
I actually think death is the better alternative...those nightmare trips will make you loose trust in even yourself to know what is going on, the fear you experience will be so real, with no cause... and the worst part is, it feels like it will never end.
Some people who've never had em want them, then when they get them, they end up not even wanting to go on rollercoasters anymore for fear of fear itself.
#219 to #210
-
infinitereaper (01/07/2014) [-] I am not afraid. But yes. I don't push my body. After all, I spend most of time just trying to stay alive.
#188 to #13
-
hor (01/07/2014) [-] Damn man, if shrooms are heavy on your body don't ever go into rc's. There's a few alright ones like 4-aco-dmt which is actually pretty close to psilocybin chemically, it's on my bucket list. But any synthetic phenethylamine is going to wreck your body. ****** like the meth of psychedelics. They're fun and all, but nothing to mess around with, especially since we don't know the long term effects yet. Have you tried anything other than shrooms yet?
#220 to #188
-
infinitereaper (01/07/2014) [-] Not yet. But my health is another issue. I've long learned to always do test runs on small doses.
#223 to #220
-
hor (01/07/2014) [-] There really isn't any test run for a lot of synthetics. Really the entire time you're on them you can tell that your brain is being bombarded with chemicals. I mean they're fun, but not for everybody, especially people who are anxious or get sick easy. Doesn't help that among the most common synthetic class, phenethlyamines, your heart beats like it's on ******* coke and since you're tripping you're full aware of it. The first time I did 2cp my heart was beating like crazy and I started getting time distortion, so I could feel every individual chamber of my heart beating and I focused so hard on it that I lost touch with everything around me. Thought I was dying. My advice is to stick to tryptamines and natural phenethlyamines. LSD, shrooms, DMT, peyote, etc. They'll teach you pretty much everything you want to know without running the risk of dying or getting some random disorder 30 years later because the long term effects where unknown when you took them. Have fun man, just be responsible.
#224 to #223
-
infinitereaper (01/07/2014) [-] Well thanks for the information. I advocate researching anything you put into your body thoroughly, and aside form a few exceptions (LSD, DMT?, etc.) I'm a bit of a naturalist. And when I say test run I mean, taking an extremely small amount, of course if you've done your research you should know what dosage would be appropriate to scale.I'm very cautious with my body since it's a mess to begin with.
#228 to #224
-
hor (01/07/2014) [-] DMT is completely natural. It's what causes dreams in human and some mammals. A lot of mammals either produce DMT in sleep or traces of similar tryptamines. When taken in excess, it's pretty damn crazy. You can extract it from certain plants to be either smoked or ingested. Smoking it yields more powerful but shorter lasting results. I had a friend who extracted it from Mimosa Hostills to smoke. It basically rips your soul out of your body and throws it into another universe. The first time I did it it hit me so hard I forgot I even took it after I blasted off. I just thought I ended up in another universe. The problem with "test running" rc's is that the dose response curve is extremely steep. With 2cp 10 mg is a good dose and 16 mg is considered an overdose, I think people start dying around 16-20 mg, but I've heard of people taking 20 and being fine. I'm actually really interested in the science behind psychedelics and I want to study neurochemistry and neuropsychology in collage. My ideal career is studying the brain's response to foreign chemicals, although I'd either have to be government employed which would require a theory to study in the first place which would require studying the chemical in the first place which is illegal without being government employed(FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF), going to another country where it's more accepted, or work under the radar. The problem with the last, other than the whole getting caught thing is that I'd have to stick strictly to neuropsychology without a lab, but the chemistry is what I'm most interested by. It's good to be cautious, though. What exactly is the problem with your body?
#234 to #233
-
infinitereaper (02/23/2014) [-] Silky Silky,
Though Bitcoin is sort of out of whack right now. Online is always better than local though, if you want to get a good deal, competition keeps it nice. though btc may be an issue most sites have some sort of exchange rate system to deal with inflation and such
Though Bitcoin is sort of out of whack right now. Online is always better than local though, if you want to get a good deal, competition keeps it nice. though btc may be an issue most sites have some sort of exchange rate system to deal with inflation and such
#111 to #13
-
teruterubozu (01/06/2014) [-] It's crazy. I'm in the same position you were: Depressive, suicidal tendencies and saying " **** it, may as well" -- I decided to order psychoactive stuff too. Last Thursday.
It hasn't arrived yet, but your story makes me hopeful.
I'm not trying shrooms, I couldn't find a dealer but I figure anything that expands my mind will help me grow out of whatever the hell my problem is.
Thanks for sharing, man.
It hasn't arrived yet, but your story makes me hopeful.
I'm not trying shrooms, I couldn't find a dealer but I figure anything that expands my mind will help me grow out of whatever the hell my problem is.
Thanks for sharing, man.
#113 to #111
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] Just take it easy. You might want to try a test run, and if possible, do it in a stress free environment. Always do the necessary scientific research beforehand as well. Good luck.
#62 to #27
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] Well what do you expect?
That being said, altered perception, is a gateway to well, altered perception.
The fallacy of senses as it were. After experiencing synergy between senses and experiencing the result of altered information processing it's not hard to see how someone could become a little more "open minded".
I do know that a study done recently seemed to show that a significant experience with psilocybin caused seemingly permanent "personality enhancement".
Fancy words for "they were positively impacted"
I for one, think psychoactives like "shrooms" are not only desirable, but even good things. And like always, I don't think it's less about the drug and more about the person who uses them.
That being said, altered perception, is a gateway to well, altered perception.
The fallacy of senses as it were. After experiencing synergy between senses and experiencing the result of altered information processing it's not hard to see how someone could become a little more "open minded".
I do know that a study done recently seemed to show that a significant experience with psilocybin caused seemingly permanent "personality enhancement".
Fancy words for "they were positively impacted"
I for one, think psychoactives like "shrooms" are not only desirable, but even good things. And like always, I don't think it's less about the drug and more about the person who uses them.
#211 to #62
-
elcreepo ONLINE (01/07/2014) [-] I don't want to be the guy that says this, but..
While that is true, there is always a risk for bad trips, nightmare trips.
Those WILL **** you up in ways you never thought possible. It's why I stopped. I'd rather get myself into a high on my own with no hallucinogens. Which is possible, if you're able to meditate and hypnotize yourself.
While that is true, there is always a risk for bad trips, nightmare trips.
Those WILL **** you up in ways you never thought possible. It's why I stopped. I'd rather get myself into a high on my own with no hallucinogens. Which is possible, if you're able to meditate and hypnotize yourself.
#222 to #211
-
infinitereaper (01/07/2014) [-] I'm not afraid of bad trips, or rather, I'm not afraid. But I'm probably a special case. Afterall, I've walked the path of WILD, and my occasional nightmares don't even bother me.
#84 to #62
-
desuforeverlulz (01/06/2014) [-] You understand, then, the "point" of shrooms. They say, shrooms is for finding your roots, acid is for spreading your branches.
#63 to #62
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] I think it's less about the drug and more about the person who uses them*
#56 to #26
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] It's really a matter of you approach it. With the utmost respect, a level head, and proper conditions, you should be fine, however, if you think you're going to flip out, then you probably will. It's a highly personal and intimate sort of thing I suppose.
#82 to #56
-
desuforeverlulz (01/06/2014) [-] In my experience, as long as you are cognizant of the effects a drug will have on you (see: erowid), and try to remain aware of the fact that you could be irrationally freaking out or experiencing delusions, the chances of such an episode actually happening are significantly reduced.
#18 to #17
-
infinitereaper (01/06/2014) [-] I got the stuff from a Kiwi farmer in Brazil. He said to me "Man I ain't got time for these kiwis and **** ." and so it was that he grew mushrooms.
But seriously, to answer your question, yes.
That being said, BTC was reasonable back then. I'm sure prices have adjusted for inflation, but ever since the market value hit $1,000 I don't really want to bother with it. I just wish I had kept the little BTC that I had invested in a while back. I'd have a few grand now... oh well, that's just my luck I guess.
But seriously, to answer your question, yes.
That being said, BTC was reasonable back then. I'm sure prices have adjusted for inflation, but ever since the market value hit $1,000 I don't really want to bother with it. I just wish I had kept the little BTC that I had invested in a while back. I'd have a few grand now... oh well, that's just my luck I guess.
