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Its as if this post helps me forget my issues, as of late my life has begun spiraling out of control, I recently found out that my Student loan disbursement was sent to someone else's bank account, and that will take a month to clear up and get me the money, on top of that my next big issue is my phone bill, I got it just tonight at 10:59:45 pm, and it sent me spiraling into a twisted rage that I wanted to vent about on Facebook, only then to find out that my Grandfather had just passed away from a heart attack. Now you're probably the phone thing isn't that big a deal, here's the kicker, the bill currently costs more than my RENT, rent 750 CAD, Phone bill 813.94 CAD and its the only mean I have to keeping in touch with my family since my little sister no longer uses her phone and my stepfather works up in the Albertan Oil Camps. I'm angry, upset, terrified and all around feeling like **** . so now I'm posting here to hopefully vent this information off my chest before I eventually snap and either kill someone or take my own life. I'm scared FJ, not scared of being an adult or dealing with responsibility, I'm sacred of my world crashing on me, I'm scared of being forced out of the house because I can't make my full rent payment, I'm scared because I can't call my mother and ask for help when I need it, I'm scared that the stress will get to me and I'll end my life with nothing special to show for it. I'm a 21 year old Student at the Southern Alberta Institute for Technology. I'm scared that I'll never see the woman I love again, I'm scared of living on the streets begging for change. I'm scared of failure and its to the point where I might just jump in front of the C-train. I need help. I need adivce... I need someone to talk to me. please.
Hey man, i know a lot of the feelings you have, im rather young, but the whole time i lived with my family we all faced those problems, and my mom was certifiably insane for a lot of it. Dont stop and peer into the lens of sorrow, You need to stay calm and level, observe and think. If things are as hard as you say, you need to focus and make sure you live to make your life better.
things are starting to fix themselves, I may not be able to pay the phone-bill but Rent is covered. The Funeral for my Grandfather well, my Step-dads Ex-wife decided to show up and try and crash the damn thing. but all in all it went well, he was a good man and he will be missed.
It might be tough right now m8 but just dont forget the reasoning you are even at school. I know for me, I went to college to be successful (came from a poor family). Mother was working so hard to support and it was in 11th grade where she lost her job. We were already poor. Now super poor. Had to file for bankruptcy. Got a job and literally worked all summer because I knew I needed money for college. Now Im out of college, found a good job, and working 8-4 loving it. Mother literally texted me last night practically begging for 50 dollars. It felt so weird. But just know it gets better. My mother just got a job at UPS, starts next week. The best thing that you can do right now is to remember what makes you happy, remember your grandfather, and to remember where to want to be. Everything will fall into place man, just keep working hard, and enjoying the little things, like this content.
Do you have access to a walmart? They have phones there called "straight talk" and it's a no contract phone. You buy a card for $45 and it's unlimited everything for 30 days.
Heya, dude. My life has turned to absolute **** too. My wife left me, took our son to another state. I lost both my parents in the two years before that. I honestly am lost in the nothingness of existence and will probably soon choose not to continue. If there were any words that can numb the pain of this horrible nightmare that is our forced existence, i would speak them to you now. But, homeboy, there just ain't. One thing i do know: This site, and the people on it, have been a source of funny, the only small niblet of sweetcorn in this huge **** sandwich of life. If I can help you feel any better i will. I feel I owe it to the entire community because the only thing I look forward to is falling asleep thumbing posts. As ****** as my life has become, I hate to see anyone else feel that their life is ****** . It is paradoxical, I know. I just know how much it hurts and I don't want anyone else to feel like I do. Keep your head up. We are all pulling for ya.
I don't know how much I can give you, friend. I'm just a 18 y/o guy going to school at WIT in Boston.
I haven't had to deal with all the stuff you're going through, the only thing that comes close is the fact my Far Far (grandfather) had a Stroke and now he's a ghost of his former self.
The only thing I have to worry about is grades. My mom and dad pay my phone bill, the school I go to has free internet for students, and I don't have a girlfriend I could lose. except maybe my hand
Don't give up. It may seem hopeless now, but just remember, there are people who love you, dude. Your mom and your dad, they don't care if you succeed or fail. They will love you no matter what. Know that. It's all I can really offer you, because the only time I've ever felt the world crashing around me was when I failed a Physics test.
Don't give up hope. Know that while it may be rainy and grey down here, above the clouds it's always gonna be sunny.
Check around the latest uploads at around 11:30 Eastern Time (About 9 am where you are). I'll try and help.