A thread to vent out your feelings
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#6
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anon (09/09/2015) [-]
I have crippling anxiety, I know that I'm moderately attractive. Had it since I was a kid, I do 70 minutes of cardio in the morning, and then go to the gym for weights at the end of the day. I constantly get hit on in public, but talking to anybody I don't know gives me a panic attack. I'm 20 and people think I'm an asshole because I don't like to speak back to them, only because I find it difficult to even say anything. I'm pretty buff, so people assume I'm just a dick. I've had terrible anxiety since before I started school as a kid, It's still yet to go away. Nothing I do makes me feel comfortable around other people, so I work out, go on lame websites like this, and attempt to feel like I have friends.
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anon (09/09/2015) [-]
This is more of a feels thing than an angry feel thing, but I need this. Thanks OP.
I had a very close friend, we were two peas in a pod. Called ourselves brothers, that senitmental BS. We trusted each other, I helped him, he helped me (though he needed my help way more, but I was okay with it because I cared about him). We had a strong bond that lasted a good lot of years. But about half a year ago, we tore ourselves fron each other. I betrayed our relationship in a fit of paranoid, depressed rage and anxiety. He said I was nothing to him any more. I hurt him, bad. And I haven't been able to get over it. I keep saying "Oh well, it's my mistake I gotta move on" but that ****** easier said than done. I've tried to man the **** up and talk to him, try and fix what I broke but I just can't face him, not after that. I can't live with myself. Life has just seemed empty since, nothing but a bitter, bitter emptiness. And I've tried connecting and getting closer with other friends, but that only makes me feel like I'm trying to replace him. It just feelshorribleman.ogg.
I'm not the rock of a guy I thought I was; I'm really, really weak.
I had a very close friend, we were two peas in a pod. Called ourselves brothers, that senitmental BS. We trusted each other, I helped him, he helped me (though he needed my help way more, but I was okay with it because I cared about him). We had a strong bond that lasted a good lot of years. But about half a year ago, we tore ourselves fron each other. I betrayed our relationship in a fit of paranoid, depressed rage and anxiety. He said I was nothing to him any more. I hurt him, bad. And I haven't been able to get over it. I keep saying "Oh well, it's my mistake I gotta move on" but that ****** easier said than done. I've tried to man the **** up and talk to him, try and fix what I broke but I just can't face him, not after that. I can't live with myself. Life has just seemed empty since, nothing but a bitter, bitter emptiness. And I've tried connecting and getting closer with other friends, but that only makes me feel like I'm trying to replace him. It just feelshorribleman.ogg.
I'm not the rock of a guy I thought I was; I'm really, really weak.
#28
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vincatvangogh (09/09/2015) [-] I invested hundreds if not thousands of dollars into gaming and now all I do is watch people play videos games and browse funnyjunk. I've lost the drive to be lazy and play video games
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iizpurple ONLINE (09/09/2015) [-] I'm fat, ugly, and depressed. But when I was with her I was just fat and ugly.
But she doesn't love me anymore.
We were together for more than a year, and in that time we fought adversity, strived to keep ourselves afloat, even had a pregnancy.
And now she's leaving. and I'd feel like blowing my brains out if it didn't all feel so pointless.
I'm back to being fat, ugly, and depressed. And I'm broke, so after she leaves I'll probably be evicted, and there's nowhere left to go anymore
But she doesn't love me anymore.
We were together for more than a year, and in that time we fought adversity, strived to keep ourselves afloat, even had a pregnancy.
And now she's leaving. and I'd feel like blowing my brains out if it didn't all feel so pointless.
I'm back to being fat, ugly, and depressed. And I'm broke, so after she leaves I'll probably be evicted, and there's nowhere left to go anymore
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anon (09/09/2015) [-]
though i wish others werent suffering but it makes me feel better to know i am not alone. i am finally starting to move forward again since my mother died a year ago but I have been feeling empty inside and dont know what it is that i need to fill it. I dont feel like i am alive anymore like when i was a kid, i just feel like a walking shell not sure if i truly exists waiting for my number to be called in the Death Que Line. I really wished the anxiety i have at night would disappear so it would not take me 2 hours of trying to shut my brain down to go to sleep because of the nightmares that occurred a year ago. I have pleaded to god for answers and still all i hear is silence. suicide is not an option because i am to prideful for people to call me a coward just wish i would know what it is i need to feel human again.
inb4 go get a girl/laid honestly i feel like people use that as an excuse more than trying to solve a problem. i have been single since i was born (26 years) and i am not a thirsty man like that.
inb4 go get a girl/laid honestly i feel like people use that as an excuse more than trying to solve a problem. i have been single since i was born (26 years) and i am not a thirsty man like that.
#1
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shadowtails 
(09/09/2015) [-] I honestly really want to talk to someone who will not lecture about what I'm going through
in private
Because long story short something happened and now I really can't handle it and I may or may not want someone dead
in private
Because long story short something happened and now I really can't handle it and I may or may not want someone dead
#32
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anon (09/11/2015) [-] This is a long post, sorry: TL;DR - I am sad because I lost mah woman.
I was with the same woman for 6.25 years. We never fought, had a great sex life, shared many small interestes (magic the gathering, hiking, stupid store wandering), and enjoyed doing the other's big hobby together (games for me, animals for her). I moved away for 2 years to pittsburgh (from NJ) to go to school for art and we managed to keep it together. During that time however, she grew depressed which causes her to distance herself. She hated when i had to move into a house with a woman and a man (im a guy) when my other 3 roomates (all men) were losing our lease and she didn't want me moving in with 3 women (a friend, a lesbian, and an "eeeeeeeeh..."). She tried to break up with me more than a few times in her anguish but we managed to get over that and be better for it.
When I finished school and moved back to Jersey she had fallen back in love with me , then both of our childhood dogs died within a week of each other and her family had to sell her house. She was also her families financial support for years now. I lost my jobs (adjunct professor and graphic designer) and she had gotten promoted at hers (shes a manager at a restaurant now, doing pretty well in all honesty). she started getting upset again and wanted me to be more clingy but didn't say it. I thought she wanted me to stop being so clingy so I gave her space.
we broke up a month and three weeks ago because I was too stupid to try and fight it this time. I found out about the clingyness bit after asking her back two days later to talk about it to no avail. I tried and tried for a month, being her friend likeshe asked, but she barely started a conversation. A few times she did it was to tell me that if I had talking to her like this six months ago she would still love me, and get angry at my trying now.
The last I spoke with her was 3 weeks ago when she told me she was actually happy. Not happier, happy. I can't think of one time our relationship has hurt the rest of her life, or even her. We were each others' stress relief when her life would get her down (a lot) or mine would, but now she's happy. I'm thinking of giving it one more week to another month and a week until I try to talk to her again.
I don't view marriage as a big thing, moving in however was a huge step for me(which we had talked about and she had gotten spooked after I came back), but I wanted to marry this woman. I left Pittsburgh to come back to NJ for this woman. There wasn't a decision I hadn't made that didn't involve her in the past 6+ years. I am more than torn up inside and I can't find a foothold. I just want her back, and coming to terms with the fact that it will most likely not happen hurts more than anything I've ever done.
I was with the same woman for 6.25 years. We never fought, had a great sex life, shared many small interestes (magic the gathering, hiking, stupid store wandering), and enjoyed doing the other's big hobby together (games for me, animals for her). I moved away for 2 years to pittsburgh (from NJ) to go to school for art and we managed to keep it together. During that time however, she grew depressed which causes her to distance herself. She hated when i had to move into a house with a woman and a man (im a guy) when my other 3 roomates (all men) were losing our lease and she didn't want me moving in with 3 women (a friend, a lesbian, and an "eeeeeeeeh..."). She tried to break up with me more than a few times in her anguish but we managed to get over that and be better for it.
When I finished school and moved back to Jersey she had fallen back in love with me , then both of our childhood dogs died within a week of each other and her family had to sell her house. She was also her families financial support for years now. I lost my jobs (adjunct professor and graphic designer) and she had gotten promoted at hers (shes a manager at a restaurant now, doing pretty well in all honesty). she started getting upset again and wanted me to be more clingy but didn't say it. I thought she wanted me to stop being so clingy so I gave her space.
we broke up a month and three weeks ago because I was too stupid to try and fight it this time. I found out about the clingyness bit after asking her back two days later to talk about it to no avail. I tried and tried for a month, being her friend likeshe asked, but she barely started a conversation. A few times she did it was to tell me that if I had talking to her like this six months ago she would still love me, and get angry at my trying now.
The last I spoke with her was 3 weeks ago when she told me she was actually happy. Not happier, happy. I can't think of one time our relationship has hurt the rest of her life, or even her. We were each others' stress relief when her life would get her down (a lot) or mine would, but now she's happy. I'm thinking of giving it one more week to another month and a week until I try to talk to her again.
I don't view marriage as a big thing, moving in however was a huge step for me(which we had talked about and she had gotten spooked after I came back), but I wanted to marry this woman. I left Pittsburgh to come back to NJ for this woman. There wasn't a decision I hadn't made that didn't involve her in the past 6+ years. I am more than torn up inside and I can't find a foothold. I just want her back, and coming to terms with the fact that it will most likely not happen hurts more than anything I've ever done.
#26
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ninjamanfu ONLINE (09/09/2015) [-] i cant find a game to play.
all i want to do is shoot lightning at people and there SHOULD be tones of games like that but i cant find any good ones that i havnt played to death:
im done with elder scrolls untilll the next one
warframe is stale
magica wizard wars is stupid
no MOBA game has what i need
im sick of minecraft
played too much world of warcraft and starwars the old republic
2d games dont hold my intrest for long.
id really like to play dungeons and dragons but finding a good group to play with is impossible it seems.
what do i do? how to i slake my lust for power?
all i want to do is shoot lightning at people and there SHOULD be tones of games like that but i cant find any good ones that i havnt played to death:
im done with elder scrolls untilll the next one
warframe is stale
magica wizard wars is stupid
no MOBA game has what i need
im sick of minecraft
played too much world of warcraft and starwars the old republic
2d games dont hold my intrest for long.
id really like to play dungeons and dragons but finding a good group to play with is impossible it seems.
what do i do? how to i slake my lust for power?
#27 to #26
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truedancingturian (09/09/2015) [-] maybe bioshock? you could even play battlefront 2 and use the electric weapons. i would suggest zeus or razor from dota, but you said no mobas
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ninjamanfu ONLINE (09/10/2015) [-]
dota is a viable option, i havent played it to death... but bio shock is a wonderful idea thank you
#16
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anon (09/09/2015) [-]
I hate it that the city I live in decided to build yet another refugee camp next to us...
#15
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redninjaa (09/09/2015) [-] im gay and lonely, I want to meet people but I have anxiety problems, parents always go on about how im the last with my family name, mother is a turning slowly into a religious crazy person
someone help me
someone help me
#14
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worldofwarcraftdog ONLINE (09/09/2015) [-] **** man
ive been messaging this suuuuuper cute girl on the internet today
shes 4'11, glasses, super smart bookworm, and just tiny and adorable
shes doing that thing where shell minimally engage in the conversation
like ill ask a question, make a statement, or whatever. and shell just kind of say whatever.
im always talking about stuff that interests her. even got a few out of her. you know how it is. find something their passionate about and just kinda let her be her about it.
but its like she wont engage. she doesnt ask me stuff. its like shes okay with just talking about her. i feel like im the only one driving the conversation.
but if she werent interested, why the **** would she be receptive in the first place?
ive been messaging this suuuuuper cute girl on the internet today
shes 4'11, glasses, super smart bookworm, and just tiny and adorable
shes doing that thing where shell minimally engage in the conversation
like ill ask a question, make a statement, or whatever. and shell just kind of say whatever.
im always talking about stuff that interests her. even got a few out of her. you know how it is. find something their passionate about and just kinda let her be her about it.
but its like she wont engage. she doesnt ask me stuff. its like shes okay with just talking about her. i feel like im the only one driving the conversation.
but if she werent interested, why the **** would she be receptive in the first place?
#13
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wcpapier (09/09/2015) [-] I hate it when we make stupid threads when there is a hating channel for it
#12
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shanethedragon (09/09/2015) [-] is it allowed to be stupid **** , or does it have to be serious, cause i have both
#9
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njall (09/09/2015) [-] I don't have the strenght i need to go through my own life.
I'm not thinking about suicide, it's only that i can't seem to find a motivation, a reason to really live. I have to force myself to do almost anything.
I don't get up from bed, i crawl out of it, so to speak.
I've consulted professional help and i've been told that i'm not depressed.
I don't know what the **** is wrong with me.
There is a hole where something important was supposed be.
I'm 32 and my family still supports me.
I've completed profesional training for various kinds of jobs, but those mean nothing to me, i got them because i needed to, not because i really wanted to work on those fields.
I've worked before, many times, but i can't seem to find a job that lasts more than 2-3 months, and it's always someone else who gets that job for me, because i simply do not care.
The situation in my country is bad, true, but i know this is not the main reason for my job issues, it's my fault.
My father wil retire in less than a year. I'm running out of time, i have to do something with myself to free them of my burden, but i simply can't push myself to it.
The eagerness, the spark, is not there.
So i'm thinking about trying some kind of medication. Tomorrow i will speak with my therapist and i will ask him if he thinks taking some meds would help in my case.
And this ******* TERRIFIES me.
I feel like this is the last step, the lowest one. I'm hitting a new personal low.
The little pride i have left is throwing a ******* tantrum against this.
After doing this i will be offcially mentally sick.
I can't deal with that...
I'm not thinking about suicide, it's only that i can't seem to find a motivation, a reason to really live. I have to force myself to do almost anything.
I don't get up from bed, i crawl out of it, so to speak.
I've consulted professional help and i've been told that i'm not depressed.
I don't know what the **** is wrong with me.
There is a hole where something important was supposed be.
I'm 32 and my family still supports me.
I've completed profesional training for various kinds of jobs, but those mean nothing to me, i got them because i needed to, not because i really wanted to work on those fields.
I've worked before, many times, but i can't seem to find a job that lasts more than 2-3 months, and it's always someone else who gets that job for me, because i simply do not care.
The situation in my country is bad, true, but i know this is not the main reason for my job issues, it's my fault.
My father wil retire in less than a year. I'm running out of time, i have to do something with myself to free them of my burden, but i simply can't push myself to it.
The eagerness, the spark, is not there.
So i'm thinking about trying some kind of medication. Tomorrow i will speak with my therapist and i will ask him if he thinks taking some meds would help in my case.
And this ******* TERRIFIES me.
I feel like this is the last step, the lowest one. I'm hitting a new personal low.
The little pride i have left is throwing a ******* tantrum against this.
After doing this i will be offcially mentally sick.
I can't deal with that...
#7
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braindeadmetalhead ONLINE (09/09/2015) [-] Im ready to die.
I have no life. I have no friends. I have nothing. I don't have a job, so i don't have money. I don't have money, so i don't have a car. I have severe social anxiety. Which keeps me from working. And it keeps me from going out of the house. I've tried seeing a therapist about it. But they don't care anymore, every time i have an appointment, they cancel it. Thats happened with 3 different therapists. I live with my mom and her mom. I hardly do anything other than sit on the computer and browse the internet all day. I've lost sleep, because i've become depressed beyond repair. The only way i see out is through death. Im tired of hurting all the time. Im tired of never having no where to go, or friends to hang out with. i want a normal life, but im convinced that its not going to happen for me in this life time. Am i going to kill myself? No, absolutely not. I don't want to cause anyone the pain that im going through because of all this. I am ready to die though.
I have no life. I have no friends. I have nothing. I don't have a job, so i don't have money. I don't have money, so i don't have a car. I have severe social anxiety. Which keeps me from working. And it keeps me from going out of the house. I've tried seeing a therapist about it. But they don't care anymore, every time i have an appointment, they cancel it. Thats happened with 3 different therapists. I live with my mom and her mom. I hardly do anything other than sit on the computer and browse the internet all day. I've lost sleep, because i've become depressed beyond repair. The only way i see out is through death. Im tired of hurting all the time. Im tired of never having no where to go, or friends to hang out with. i want a normal life, but im convinced that its not going to happen for me in this life time. Am i going to kill myself? No, absolutely not. I don't want to cause anyone the pain that im going through because of all this. I am ready to die though.
#8 to #7
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anon (09/09/2015) [-]
Start working out, It'll help with anxiety. Posting as Anon because pussy., I wrote #6. Just try to get a **** tier job where you don't have to talk to people and can do things yourself, those thoughts aren't good. I know saying to work out sounds lame, but it does a lot more than you'd think. If you already do work out, maybe take small steps? Dating apps, find some girl to just talk to, even if you don't plan on meeting up. Talking is nice.
#5
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valourinfj (09/09/2015) [-] I have to take 5-10 pain killers a day about 3000-6000 mg and I honestly know i'm slowly killing myself but this is a better alternative then the insurance.
